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This has to end soon. I want to work. I am tired of feeling like a big, clumsy oaf. I want to wear my clothes again. It isn't that I am not grateful for the clothes that have been lent to me during this time, but, well... I'm sure we all miss our own skins.

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You and me both.

I'm all right. I have some things to think about.

We can always go try karaoke with these bodies. Might make it more exciting.

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If you need ~~help~~ ~~a friend~~ someone to talk to...I'd understand if you don't, but just so you know.

We should. What are you doing tomorrow?

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I always could, you know that. I think I'm just trying to sort it out and I'm really not getting anywhere.

Nothing. Like usual.

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Sometimes it helps to say it out loud. But I don't want to impose, if you don't want to share.

It's just... this thing with Phonos. Whatever it is. I'm thinking I've reached the end of my rope, and that I was quite wrong to do what I did.

The dilemma is his, he has to come to his conclusions himself and he seemed very stubborn.

What did you do? Something more then just pushing him?

Edited 2011-04-13 20:38 (UTC)

You know well that I am the one who kissed him first, which started this entire mess. If I hadn't done such a thing, he would not be dealing with such things now. It wasn't fair for him, and it still isn't.

I should not selfishly expect an unrealistic outcome from something he was forced to deal with on account of me, and I feel like I am taking advantage of him.

I think need to sever whatever this is and let him live the way he thinks he should. I have tried so hard to help him understand, I have seen him try to his own frustration, and I don't know that he ever will grasp any of it by no real fault of his own. Murder was never meant to be human or have emotion. Khaos and Gaia were cruel to allow such a thing.

You can not blame yourself for his reaction to the kiss. There was no way you could have known something so simple would have created such a dilemma. When someone looks human and mortal, it can be easy to forget they are not.

That might be for the best. Emotions are...messy and need time and space. Just be careful with how you end your relationship? If he's ever ready to deal with having emotions, he might need you. When I spoke with him he seemed quick to assume things and it wouldn't help if he read your intentions wrong.

I have a feeling that no matter what I say, it will be read wrong. Though I have noticed that he's been listening more and resisting less. I am not entirely sure what that means.

I don't know what to think anymore. I was foolish.

Edited 2011-04-13 21:49 (UTC)

It probably means he's learning and adjusting.

Maybe you are over thinking it all? Not everything makes sense. And it's better that its someone he knows who has created this problem, then a stranger. If we're here long enough, he would have to deal with this eventually.

I hope so, for his sake if no one else.

You are right, I suppose. However, I do believe it would be good for him to have his own time to consider everything.

Then give him time, wait for him to come to you. And for now, stop thinking about it if you can.

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[Filter: Helenus] Because tagging myself takes talent. lol

[Filter: Meli] All the cool kids do it XD

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