4/12

[meli_mollifies]

This has to end soon. I want to work. I am tired of feeling like a big, clumsy oaf. I want to wear my clothes again. It isn't that I am not grateful for the clothes that have been lent to me during this time, but, well... I'm sure we all miss our own skins.

Comments

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

...I was just thinking something similar.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I think it's safe to assume most of us would like to feel normal again. I am glad some had an enlightening time. No harm there, I suppose.

How are you?

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

It isn't the worst they have done, but now it's starting to drag on. I wish I could share some of the others enthusiasm.

Better, but there is still no good answer to that question. You?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

You and me both.

I'm all right. I have some things to think about.

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

We can always go try karaoke with these bodies. Might make it more exciting.

[Filter: Meli]

If you need help a friend someone to talk to...I'd understand if you don't, but just so you know.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

We should. What are you doing tomorrow?

[Filter: Helenus]

I always could, you know that. I think I'm just trying to sort it out and I'm really not getting anywhere.

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

Nothing. Like usual.

[Filter: Meli]

Sometimes it helps to say it out loud. But I don't want to impose, if you don't want to share.

[Filter: Helenus]

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

It's just... this thing with Phonos. Whatever it is. I'm thinking I've reached the end of my rope, and that I was quite wrong to do what I did.

[Filter: Meli]

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

The dilemma is his, he has to come to his conclusions himself and he seemed very stubborn.

What did you do? Something more then just pushing him?

[Filter: Helenus]

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

You know well that I am the one who kissed him first, which started this entire mess. If I hadn't done such a thing, he would not be dealing with such things now. It wasn't fair for him, and it still isn't.

I should not selfishly expect an unrealistic outcome from something he was forced to deal with on account of me, and I feel like I am taking advantage of him.

I think need to sever whatever this is and let him live the way he thinks he should. I have tried so hard to help him understand, I have seen him try to his own frustration, and I don't know that he ever will grasp any of it by no real fault of his own. Murder was never meant to be human or have emotion. Khaos and Gaia were cruel to allow such a thing.

[Filter: Meli]

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

You can not blame yourself for his reaction to the kiss. There was no way you could have known something so simple would have created such a dilemma. When someone looks human and mortal, it can be easy to forget they are not.

That might be for the best. Emotions are...messy and need time and space. Just be careful with how you end your relationship? If he's ever ready to deal with having emotions, he might need you. When I spoke with him he seemed quick to assume things and it wouldn't help if he read your intentions wrong.

[Filter: Helenus] Because tagging myself takes talent. lol

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I have a feeling that no matter what I say, it will be read wrong. Though I have noticed that he's been listening more and resisting less. I am not entirely sure what that means.

I don't know what to think anymore. I was foolish.

[Filter: Meli] All the cool kids do it XD

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

It probably means he's learning and adjusting.

Maybe you are over thinking it all? Not everything makes sense. And it's better that its someone he knows who has created this problem, then a stranger. If we're here long enough, he would have to deal with this eventually.

[Filter: Helenus]

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I hope so, for his sake if no one else.

You are right, I suppose. However, I do believe it would be good for him to have his own time to consider everything.

[Filter: Meli]

[gifted-sight.livejournal.com]

Then give him time, wait for him to come to you. And for now, stop thinking about it if you can.

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Miss skin?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

It's a just an expression. It's a way of saying that you are appreciative of yourself.

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Appreciative.

Why?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

Well, it's a good thing to love yourself. To appreciate who and what you are.

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Self. Whatness is easy. Whoness? Owls?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

The whoness is part of the self.

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Mari-leee Green ?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

It's the name the mortals in the world will know me as. Those who have brought us here saw it fit enough. What name did they give to you?

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Is that your Whoness now? Self?

Is Devin Shelley. monstersmodernPrometheus Wrong. My self?

I am trying to keep up with her! lol I don't know how I'm doing, but I love her.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I think being in the time and place we are now, it's just a small part of my Whoness. I think it's something we need to look at for getting us through this time and place, even though our reasons for being here are likely more sinister.

You're doing great! Phrike knows the Korefamily is where you go to get answers lol

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Still Melinoe? Still both?

<3

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I am still and always Melinoe. Sometimes I just have to be Marilee for a while. So, in a way, I am both but I am always Melinoe.

[thehorrorx2.livejournal.com]

Prom-ise?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

You have my word. Just as you will always be Phrike, even if you must be Devin from time to time.

It's not easy for you, I know.

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

It's been a big hit this one. Could last for like.... woah.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I'd rather not think about that prospect. I make a terrible male.

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

I'm good at it and all- but I still miss myself. My legs.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

You do make for an attractive man, admittedly.

Oh! The legs. I'm not fond of this, ah, hairiness myself. I cannot wait to wear a dress again.

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

I'm still shaving mine- haters to the left. And, I mean, you can wear a dress. It's New York.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I tried to shave. It didn't turn out so well. Wearing pants helps.

You're right. I could wear a dress, but I would feel silly.

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

Hey remember when everyone was in skirts and what not? You'd think guys would be the ones that need the breeze.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

You'd think they would appreciate it more. It seems to be something most of them enjoy.

Alas, the modern world is always changing. Even for us.

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

Can't overheat that junk.

I would complain but it's pretty freaking awesome. Trufax. Ipods and feminism and amazingness!

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

And fudge. Why no one came up with this sooner is beyond me.

...You want to go out later?

[pornpoet.livejournal.com]

OMG FUDGE. And ice cream in waffle cones! And creme brulsdkaa how ever you spell that.

You know I do, sweetheart.~

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

Crème brûlée? If so, then oh my god yes!

Fantastic.

[unbiaseddeath.livejournal.com]

Are you alright?

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I'll be fine once I'm feeling more like myself.

Are you all right?

[unbiaseddeath.livejournal.com]

I am well, thank you.

[meli-mollifies.livejournal.com]

I am glad to hear it.

[Filter: Phonos]

Do you need anything?

[Filter: Melinoe]

[unbiaseddeath.livejournal.com]

Nothing which I cannot obtain myself. Thank you for asking.

..Yourself?

[persephoniacal.livejournal.com]

I feel much the same, my daughter. The novelty has quite worn off.