You know well that I am the one who kissed him first, which started this entire mess. If I hadn't done such a thing, he would not be dealing with such things now. It wasn't fair for him, and it still isn't.

I should not selfishly expect an unrealistic outcome from something he was forced to deal with on account of me, and I feel like I am taking advantage of him.

I think need to sever whatever this is and let him live the way he thinks he should. I have tried so hard to help him understand, I have seen him try to his own frustration, and I don't know that he ever will grasp any of it by no real fault of his own. Murder was never meant to be human or have emotion. Khaos and Gaia were cruel to allow such a thing.