[A very ecstatic-looking Melinoe is back to her normal self, but wearing the far too big clothes that she'd borrowed. On some women, they might look sexy. On her, she feels ridiculous, but you couldn't tell...]
Let's just say that I had foolishly hoped for more than I should have, even though I knew what I should have expected. Especially after that night.
There will be no more talk of feelings, emotions or the like. You'll live your life the way you wish to, and I'll live mine. Work will be as it should be.
Forgive me, Phonos, for being a bit hurt by all that's gone on just for you to tell me that I need to move along. I'm going to need a little time to mend, and honestly, a professional relationship may be all that I can tolerate for a time. I cannot just spring back as though nothing has happened. I thought you wanted things neutral, and that is about as neutral as it can be.
I know you cannot give me everything I would ever want, and I would never ask you of something you cannot provide. It's my own fault for letting it get as far as it had, and for being selfish enough to think that there might have been more. There is no blame here but to myself.
I told you to move along if everything I detailed is what you need, as I am not capable of providing all of those traits, behaviors, and emotions at this time. That is your choice.
I would never deny the things that have happened between us and I have told you that I am different with you than with others.
You contradict yourself. Either you are asking more of me than I am capable of and it is your error, or you wish only to ask for what I am capable of and will allow me the time to endeavor it.
And you have contradicted yourself more times than I can count during this entire situation.
Tell me what you want, Phonos. While those are things that would be nice to have in a relationship, those are also things that happen over time. They are also not the be-all end-all of a relationship. I've never had one beyond friendship and family, and everyone is different. What I know I've learned from being on the outside.
I want simplicity. I want to be returned to the past, when I was spirits of Murder, Killing, and Slaughter. When things were natural, known, and distinct. I want logic.
Here and now, I only know that I do not want any less of you than I have now.
I am willing to maintain.. whatever it is that we have, so long as you will be patient with me and not continually endeavor to force more than I am ready for or capable of.
Filter: Phonos
Date: 2011-04-26 04:05 am (UTC)From:There will be no more talk of feelings, emotions or the like. You'll live your life the way you wish to, and I'll live mine. Work will be as it should be.
Filter: Melinoe
Date: 2011-04-26 04:16 am (UTC)From:Filter: Phonos
Date: 2011-04-26 04:29 am (UTC)From:I know you cannot give me everything I would ever want, and I would never ask you of something you cannot provide. It's my own fault for letting it get as far as it had, and for being selfish enough to think that there might have been more. There is no blame here but to myself.
Filter: Melinoe
Date: 2011-04-26 04:36 am (UTC)From:I would never deny the things that have happened between us and I have told you that I am different with you than with others.
You contradict yourself. Either you are asking more of me than I am capable of and it is your error, or you wish only to ask for what I am capable of and will allow me the time to endeavor it.
Filter: Phonos
Date: 2011-04-26 05:00 am (UTC)From:Tell me what you want, Phonos. While those are things that would be nice to have in a relationship, those are also things that happen over time. They are also not the be-all end-all of a relationship. I've never had one beyond friendship and family, and everyone is different. What I know I've learned from being on the outside.
Tell me what you want.
Filter: Melinoe
Date: 2011-04-26 05:08 am (UTC)From:Here and now, I only know that I do not want any less of you than I have now.
Filter: Phonos
Date: 2011-04-26 05:27 am (UTC)From:Some more than others. It's less lonely hereTo the way we are supposed to be.I agree. I don't know what it is that we have, but you're a part of it, and that's what I want.
Filter: Melinoe
Date: 2011-04-26 05:53 am (UTC)From:Filter: Phonos
Date: 2011-04-26 06:14 am (UTC)From:I was notI triedI will try my absolute best for you. I am far from perfect, but I will try.Filter: Melinoe
Date: 2011-04-26 07:31 am (UTC)From: