Mental pain is often worse I think, it's can't be ignored like the body. For me though the waiting is often worse then whatever happens. I am not very used to not knowing what will happen next.

It's not your fault. I have worked something out with my roommate who has a business to help him out. I could look for a more permanent position but hadn't thought of it.

That sounds like depressing work, to always be surrounded by the dead and grieving, but it sounds like you dont mind that. You must learn a lot about people today.