I am trying not to, but it's difficult for an array of reasons, brother. Two that are the worst are that Mama was raped by her own father who feels that he deserves everything he desires and the simple fact that I am quite literally nothing to the one who was my father all this time. It pains me, and I know I cannot fault him for not remembering us, but I know he loves our mother.

And that may be the only thing I can hope for as I attempt to make sense of the rest of it...