The purpose of those things is to make an otherwise dull, repetitive life without much meaning worth living.

Your purpose has not changed. Neither has mine, but I get far less sleep.

You live this life we were thrown into the way you want, Phonos. I suspect the one thing any of us could do to frustrate Khaos and Gaia more is to be happy. There is that, if nothing else. There isn't anything I could ever say or do will change your mind about how you view yourself. Is that not the answer you've been wanting to hear?